Ideal couple

That was a wonderful evening...

They were meeting after a long break. Before that, distances were spicing up relations, sometimes bringing them closer, or else creating walls between them and their thoughts and Finally here they are, together, to enjoy an ideal evening, just like crafted carefully for them.

She was working with one of the top notch company. He was just a struggler, waving on the flow of destiny, looking out for destination. Both are from different places, different surroundings, studied together, 'n slowly entered into a bond. After the college, everything changed, right from the location. When they used dream about smooth running life, and suddenly were down. Right on the earth, in the company of so-called hi-profile people, who used to comment like, 'Postgrad is great, but what about job? my (someone's someone) did his PG from (XYcollege) now works with HDFC/ICICI/HSBC/Standard Charter earning (some two digit number before 'Lakhs')...

She was brilliant and made it to her dream place, and of course, a place for which everyone will dream for. He decided to take his own path. Non-glamorous, but highly ascertain and sometimes illogical too. They used to talk every night, briefing about each others life, funny creatures they encountered in the day and so-on and so-for. But unknowingly they were not at a same level. Later on, even the phone-calls reduced their timing, Subjects changed, contents changed even the details and ideas. Still they love each other.

One day, he asked her, about engagement. She was like stumbled in-between. She asked for some time. Later on, the reply was, "It might be too early to decide something now!" He was happy, waiting eagerly for her response. Meanwhile he is judging himself, entered into a business, started working and enjoying that. Again the matter came into hit point and he asked her about marriage. She asked him few questions. Mainly related to the things he knows about daily life and a specially about earning. The hidden meaning was about whether you are capable of earning which is sufficient for them together.

He realized that, he was just loving her, and hardly ever thought about practicability of relations. Was he wrong at that time? Again the matter postponed. Time was running, so as seasons and finally they found an evening together after these events. They got a neglected corner in that small bistro, and ordered each others favorite dishes. Conversation was important for them, not the coffee. They were talking, opening up with each other after so many days. Just like they used to do during college days.

The lights went dim and music stopped. That was the sign that Bistro is closing down. They came out, hugged each other. Went on to the opposite sides and disappeared in the dark shadows of night.

No one knows what happened after that. For spectators they are like an ideal couple. Even their college friends think the same. Made for each other.

But finally relations are all about what happens between them, not about what other perceives.

Second thought

"Life never has rewind button", a thought used till flat by many hindi movies. Even we often think, if it was possible to do this, the result might have been better. 

Now a days I am busy like anything, hardly had time to give first thought to most of the things. But on a moment, I was in a position to give second thought about a thing, I preserved in a silent corner of my mind. For a moment, I thought its enough now...'n I am on the verge for second thought.

Every moment, contributed to me, one or the other way. What I am is a collaborative product of sum of all moments, rather what I am not is the direct result of it. Second thought is for looser, who are not satisfied with the situation they are in, though ironically they made themselves into the situation

 Its not a day or an hour, which made us think about our relations, our decisions or our life. Its the whole set of circumstances. If one wants to show affection about a decision, relation or life, this was the moment. In a movie, Matrix, NEO has been asked for two choice, Love or Life. He goes for Love. I think the reason being, Life is not possible without Love. He would have given second thought there, and that would have turned the whole scenario upside down.  Pessimistically, for me, suicide is the way to show your affection toward your life. If one don't have life as he/she expects, he/she has full right to ask for better beginning. But how many of the people think this much before it is a key question.

On the other hand, is it like second thought always gives wrong direction. The answer is 'NO'; atleast for me. The reason being, second thought is always a kind of dreamy creation about better future, built when nothing can realize it. Its like a horizon, which will extent further. 

Looking back is different again, when you are not worried about your previous decisions, then you can enjoy your journey down memory lane. 

"Night is off and there is morning again

All my dreams are gone

Back to life Insane"

End of the day

Evening.... Some of the really enjoyable moments in my life happened, with the evening.

Evening always fascinates me. Being a photographer, my lot of creations depict the random dispersion of colors on the canvas of evening. Sometimes evening makes me dewy, with the memories of past. I can recall some great evenings I spent at some of very beautiful locations like, Simla. The memories sometimes took me on the journey of busy streets of Massourie, sometimes I found myself at METRO, in Bangalore, where I spent some of the great moments in my life, with my group and special one. Some rainy evening, sitting in candle-lights, having bhaji and tea made by mom. Sunday evenings were always so special for me. They also keep me wondering about how spoiled or spent my Sunday. Again there will be a new week, new tasks, old routine of college, everything will be the same till next Sunday. I can always recall a Sunday evening, I spent at Vrindavan garden in Mysore, with few very close friends of that time, not because of friends, but for eternal photographs, which are very close to my heart till date. A lamppost, some people sitting near that, some twilights and endless waterfront on the background, the perfect caption was, "Bye Bye Sunday - Again the battle will start with the name Life."

I am strict follower of philosophy "No one is perfect and nothing is ideal." Still I can't resist myself in conceptualizing my ideal evening. It can be a different concept everytime, sometimes, a coffee, a loved one and lot of time for chatting. Sometimes it can be with a favourite book like 'Raat Pashmine Ki - Gulzar" and an open beach or may be just a good friend, a car and endless road to cover. Anything of this can be ideal, atleast till the evening when I will to make it real.

Now a days, I am too much busy in being doing nothing...

Every evening brings an alarm towards a new day, new expectations and zero outcome. There are evenings vacant for me, but I am not in a mood to enjoy it. Sometimes, I feel the creativity within me is fading with every new day. Sometimes, I hardly find it interesting to relax or enjoy the evening which I used to do, just few months before.

Planning for some great evening, with something, may be I never done before. May be an open ground with pleasant cool breeze, a guitar, someone special to accompany me and much awaited candle-light dinner...

Finally every evening ends with a night. and every night calls up a new morning.

To me evening is just a wonderful sojourn, towards a new morning.

ek nayi subah

nayi raah

ek nayi tammanna se

kare hum nayi shuruaat

The Concept

chupake se kahin, dheeme paanv se 

jaane kis taraf, kis ghadi

aage badh gaye, hamse raahon mein 

par tum toh abhi, the yahin 

kuchh bhi na suna,  

kab ka tha gila 

kaise keh diya 

alvida  

jinake darmiya gujri thi abhi 

kal tak yeh meri zindagi 

dono baahon ko, 

thandi chaanv ko 

mai bhi kar chala 

alvida

An emotive lyric, characterized by one of the 

hated feelings in the world. I generally perceive 

saying goodbye is the most difficult moment 

in the life, even we never find it too much relevant 

in the routines.  

This is my attempt to recall some of the preceding times, 

which I found too much close to my heart but still missed...

Missed by choice or by chance...

This will be an open-hearted journey into my life, my experiences and about

the things I missed

Need your wishes for the journey...